Skin care products, perfumes, vitamin tablets of youth. Photos are plentiful enough. I now wash my face with running water without rubbing anything. The skin is also pretty good. Our anxieties may change over time. Now there is no appearance anxiety, just feeling fat again, fat again. But the real anxiety is being a self-entertaining artist. Isn't it great? Art should not be just for one's own liking. I wonder where the income will come from? Starting a business is bad enough. Not wanting to be seen as an artist is Prodigal 2.0. A lot of artists have a job as a teacher within the system, but I don't. Treat the identity of an artist as a hobby, take pictures, write a diary, and pretend to be aggressive.